I don’t know how to start this but
here I go.
Do we get to know ourselves before
we meet other people?
Certainly not.
And then, what is the motivation to try
after that?
I might be crazy,
and I say might to be generous, but
I often wonder how much I need other people,
how much they need me
and how much I need myself.
Perhaps one of the most common affirmations I’ve heard
in my head recently is that
I am beautiful.
Beauty is the total encompassing of integrity and creativity
along with a level of aptitude.
After repeating it so many times, I find it harder to believe
so there’s obviously something missing.
It’s difficult to need people and not need people,
or what I mean is
I need people to remind me that I don’t need them
and to have someone to give something to
in order to find cosmic importance and yes,
moral superiority sometimes.
What I mean is that everyone’s older or weaker or an imbecile
or running around with their smartphones or enslaved,
and by enslaved, I mean without knowing it.
And I know comparing myself to other people is deadly,
and I do it because I don’t want to not be lazy sometimes
because, you see
it’s much easier to look out than in,
the way eyes operate.
